There is a beautiful book called “The Radiation Sonnets: For My Love in Sickness and in Health” by Jane Nolen. She writes beautiful poems from the eyes of the caregiver, one for each day of radiation. I wanted to put one of her poems on the blog for you all to admire. As a patient, it is very moving to hear the voice of the caregiver. I am very excited about including many different perspectives in this book. I think it will provide a rich, layered perspective on cancer.
Off you go again, like a toddler to school,
In a neighbor’s car for a noonday ride;
Free at last from the tyrant’s rule,
Free of the house where there’s nowhere to hide.
And here I stay, feeling guilty and lost,
Feeling scared and panicked, yet glad you’ve gone.
The caregiver rarely counts her own costs;
Even more rarely is she left alone.
I hold you close, and I push you away,
Dream of funerals and letting go.
But it’s for miracles I pray each day,
While working hard to make it so.
Then, like any mother nervously at home,
I stand watch at the window until you come
by Jane Yolen copyright 2003